Im am so mad right now.!?

My mom had got me a prepaid phone (tracfone) that's motorola. My freaking phone look like a small handheld game. And it has low quality graphics. And im embarred because i cant even bring my phone outside. If i do bring it outside i have to check to see what time on the slick side. All i need is some advice of how to calm down or advice to get me the phone i want. I just want a camera phone that has internet.. and its cheap. and not a generic phone. or not that expensive.